My Baby Neo is B.A.C.K
Yahooooooooo… !! My baby is back. Everything was fixed ALRIGHT! Yeah. Those complains that I’ve made such as:
* To check engine noisy-belting
* To check dashboard noisy-vibrations
* To check front RHS door Not align
* To check wiper
They even helped me to clean my baby’s body and mirror and even vacumn everything. Seems like my baby is totally NEW. Although side of it got alot of scars-la…shhhh..
Mum helped me to drove back home. And paid back her which cost around RM115. Thanks Mummy!!!!
Today, I drove to work. So happy. Past 2 days, I didnt have the chance to drive. But I did not speed ok. Many of my friends told me to "lap yau" after the 1st service. It makes your car goes stronger and more power. But..halo! Eat petrol de lea. Each month pay for petrol also RM200+ (-_-") duh. Yup, not easy to owe a car.
Back to my life…
Recently, saw john online at 6pm. But I didnt chat with him. Everytime I saw his name appear in my screen, I will go gan cheong. I wish I could be normal. Treat him as my fren. But cant lor. Ex will always be ex.
Mostly I told all my stories to my bro. He’ll always be there. Listerning and giving me alot of space to breath. Thanks Bro!
Just yesterday, he sent me one sms. Saying "Remember da times ah lou spentwif u? All his effort n money means ntg now. We all luv u n care about u. Help urself, luv urself. Be happy, dat’s all we hope 2 see. U always look pretty when u’re laughing. Dun let john take dat awayfrom u. I hate seeing da stressfull n sad u.Coz it hurts me too."
Bro sorry. I didnt mean anything. Making u sad sad tim. Sorry. Yeah. Dat time Lou koh really spend alot of his time and effort to cheer me up. Helping me to forget and forgive what john did to me. I even try. But it seems helpless. I know If I couldnt stand up again, who would help me right? I tried to be strong in times, but when I’m 90% heal, John will suddenly appear. He will call me or fwd sms me or even on9. I neva have at least half the year to be by my own without getting his news lea!
I dunno why I so sat pai also. I keep all this things mostly to myself. But once, If i really cant tahan, I will either find my bro or my close friends to chat with. Cuz I know they will be 24 hours by myside.
Bro even said "Good. Treassure n appreciate da 1 in front, not da past. Dun throw dat person away if he’s really good. Coz it’s not easy 4 2 person 2 be 2gether. Learn 2 luv n understand 1 another. Fullfill da dream i ddint get 2 =) Be da happiest girl alive, hugs."
After this msg I received, I already know what to do. Thanks lotsa bro.
Yesterday nite, Dou came to my house and he helped me to translate some of the mandarin wording to me. Then, we went to mamak to have our supper. From there, I asked Dou. Do you get jealous when I told you about John thingy? He said yea. (Well, I know I’m asking those silly questions. But at least I wan to hear the answers from him truly). Then I said, John probably dont have any GF. I’m not sure. If he asked me back to go back to his side, and IF i did, what will you do? Dou said "Come, I help you slice off your roti canai. But in the end, he still didnt gave me any answers. He said "I know you wont! Cause you love me one only". I smiled at him eat my roti.
Like yesterday, I tried to track john down at Friendster again. He told my fren dat he didnt play friendster. N here, Yea! He’s new user. That means he juz registered! Anyway, I dont think he can track me either. Cause I changed my email and if he did view me, Haha.. he can’t see what I wrote. Cuz I set to 1st friend user. Not open to every/anyone. Clever huh? Unless, last time if he smart, he bookmark my blog. Then he can onli read. I dont think he’s so free lor. Yes No? No? No? Yes? No? Yes? Wui.. I dunno la.. I know, last time Justin’s death, he got read my blog. Each blog I post he also got read. N that’s why thru there I know he’s pretty jealous of Justin.
Yea. Mayb I should appreciate Dou more. Consider about him better. Though he’s uneducated and poor financially. But if he got a good heart, why not huh? I dont greedy for money like some of those girls is. I just greedy for Two things. Love and Trust that the guy can onli give me. I know if the guy is well finnancial, you wont face probs together even you are married and start to have a family. I just hunger for love that’s all. All this well, I dont get any. Yeah. You get it when the 1st time you go dating. It’s sweet and romantic. But after a long time, when you ask for this and that, you probably cant even GET IT! Cause he/she already is your love life, he/she wont do any more things to make you happy like before liao. I got Love from one of my ex before. That time I worked at China Town. He’s quite nice. When ever I throw tantrums at him, he will call me or get to me and solve everything. He wont leave it aside and pretend nothing has happen. Great guy actually.
Like Dou, when once I really angry at him, he came to find me right infront of my house. Else he will try to reach me. Reach me till i answer his phone. Waited at me at the padang to see one baby neo - coming back. He’s nice also. Usually I wear those black thing bracelet. He make one for me. "X" at the center and craved my fav name and number at both sides "xter" and "8367". Yesterday I finally said the word "Thank You" to him for making one bracelet to me. He looked at me although like shy shy type. I said "really. really thank you. I love it very much". He said he wanted to make another better one. Cause the previous one is 100% black. Like cant see a thing". I told him. "Dont make another one. One is enough. Is pointless if you make alot for me. It’s not the matter of the look. It’s matter of your heart. The heart you wanted to make one for me. You are the 1st guy who make me stuff." (appartly from my ex, who maked me a card that can open and open and open till the small card)
He looks so happy and smiles so sweet. Yea, I just telling him the truth. Like John thingy. I know he get jealous when I told him about John. Who wont right? For me, I might get super duper zillion jealous. But I dont wanna keep things behind him. I wanna share my happy and sad stuff with him also. Once he even called me and said he was happy that I told him everything. My life, My past and everything. That time he bought me one big pack of asam boi sweet. Then I told him that - so long, and finnaly today John msg me.Told him totally everything.
Yea Bro told me if I cant let go of the past, dont start new one. It makes the opposite sex hurts and later might have arguments or etc. At 1st, I reli though of getting with Dou so that I can fully forget about John thingy. Know I was doing a wrong choice. Dou even said "If you said you totally forget about john, you are just telling a lie to yourself". Then I asked him "since you know I cant fully recovered, how come you still love me har?" Then I dont know what he answer me adi. I did told him to leave. But still he’s standing infront of me.
Because of this silly things, I cant even do my work properly. I already try hard not to mix with private and working stuff together. Huh.
Wow.. luckily tomolo is saturday. Atleast I still got 1 and a half day to rest…
[B.A.C.K again]
Dou told me about Jun Fei things, when I told him that Jun Fei looks sweet when he smile. He said:-
Dou: Remember the 1st time you came over to my house? Regarding about Ah Mei’s car?
xter: Yea
Dou: June Fei said "That girl not bad (which is me, cause just me, Mei and Arjun). Got tattoo de lea." Then I said "then u like her?" Then Jun Fei said "people got Arjun as boyfriend joh la" Dou said "Arjun not his boyfren la"
Wahh… I told Dou.. since when this news spread so fast har? I tot Arjun like me was before I went to PD? Wahh…
No wonder last time when I told Dou about Jun Fei, he suddenly told me "I dun like to mix with him de cause he can get any girls he like, cuz he’s tall and leng chai". Yea true also. Haha…
