Life is Death

Supposed to meet my godbro at 1utama de. But because I’ve informed him late - roughly bout 12.10pm, den we have to cancel the meeting. Nono.. He FFK me.. Haha. Bad bad brother.

But then, went for lunch together with June and Devi. Yup, Devi find me ner. And she gave me those penang picture. So xcited liao. Thanks lotsa.

So, after lunch, Went home. And took a short nap. And 7pm, I finnaly can meet Nick back. Haha. At last, for more than a year, we meet up together. Last met up was around Aug 2005 - Nicholas Showcase.

Really really enjoy myself together with him. After dinner, we went for the movie so call Ghost Cinderella @Korean. Cuz heared many ppl say that this movie is very scary and frightening. But.. Haha! No scary de lor. When coming to the excited part, Nick thaught I might scream or something, but I didnt. Wahahahah.. He look sat mong. But those Malay gurls that sat next to him reli - sai tam. Sikit sikit scream. Haiz.

-N- I reckon to you guys. Dont go to watch this movie. 1st the story is real lagging. 2nd, Not scary de lor. Not excited also. Should train those who dont watch ghost movie to see this. Colic also the same. So lame. Where is the Frightening movies gone har? Miss those super scary one I wan SHUTTER back!!!

Around 11.45pm, Ah sam smsed me up to go yum cha. I agree and bring Nick along. Somemore both of them are late sleeper. Real Ghost thingy. Haha.

When Nick decided to just use one car instead of two cars, Sam park her car up. But her back bumper hit up something, and that stuck at it’s tyre. I told Nick whether he can help my fren out. I was so - so sorry for both of them. 1st, I hardly knew Nick, and I’m asking him to do favor. 2nd, If I say use two cars and go for yum cha, sure this thing wont happen to my fren’s car. My fault. *Down Mood Liao* Somemore my fren car was New de. And this is the 1st accident she got. So So sorry…

Went to Chandran Mamak Tong. Chat chat chat and gossip here and there till… 2.30am ba? Poor thing for that guy, cause he actually dont know what we chatted all about. But he got join in our conversation oso. And suddenly both of them attack me. Wah Zai. What I did har?

Got home around 3am - I guess, Hard to sleep. Roll here and there.. 5 am liao.. zzzz…

The next morning, Meet Jack’s baby. Bobo and I went to Giant to buy stuff for her baby. So that her baby will remember both of us. Haha. Juz Kidding. Then I bought one big packet of Hacks at giant. **jump jump** Got hacks to eat at office liao.

One the way back to bobo’s car, we stopped by at the Proton area. I got the list of Proton Satria Neo. Got 3k discount ner. So, Later I’m goin to talk with my mum. Suddenly I’m intrested in Satria Neo liao. Haha. I’m goin crazy joh. And now, got xtra one color. Maroon. But I still prefer black. Maroon not bad. Look classy abit.

Wah Lao. His baby so big liao. So pretty. Got two big beautiful black eyes. I wan her eyes. So shinning. So attractive!! Been playing with her. She got lots of strength de lor. Can kick people one. Then looks cute cute. I oso wanna born one liao.. Must faster go cari partner and born one baby. Wan to born cute cute one. Then pierce her ear, make her hair punk. Put on funky bracelt for her. Haha.. Sorry, I go pintai joh.. Over limit xcited.

Friday night, was out with my friend. Then I went to the near by UOB Bank (United Overseas Bank) to cash out money for usage. The ATM machine showed something like "Transaction Been Canceled". That time I clicked on Currant Account. So I thaught it must have been my mistake. I insert my Maybank card again, and the same thing showed up up. This time I clicked Saving Account. Darn.

So my friend took me to Maybank Bank instead. Was so happy, can cash out money liao. Instead, Maybank ATM said the same thing. Geez, I knew my card went something wrong joh. Fine. I will call up the Maybank to activate my card soon *was tooooo busy nowadayz*

Remember! DONT EVER GO TO UOB if you are using local card to redraw your money out!

Then, we went to Citibank to cash in money. Because I dont bring alot of cash out, I opened one of my Heart Love Shape that cost RM100 (yup, I got RM1, RM5, RM50 and RM100 that is twin heart shape - it’s my money la. Not lover give one lea)

This is the Heart Shape that I meant:-

So I opened this money up. As what you think, it will absolutely crumble right? I was panic whether will the Citibank reject this money out or not. But.. HAHA! Citibank tamak. Whole day didnt eat in any money. So it ate mine de. So happi. If go to KTM machine, surely got rejected out.

What I do when I reached home was - took out one of my RM100, and start to fold the Twin Love again. Geezzz.. Ya, I’m crazy bout folding money.

Just recently got his reply. He wrote so long lea. But mostly telling me about his stuff. Well, this ex is not John. Cause I seldom call John as my ex. Wahahahah..

Knew him when I worked at China Town. But today, I read his message. I’ve noticed that he had a better career now. Proud for him also. He told me about his past and future jobs such as trekking guide, work in a backpackers hostel,emailing guest, internet stuff, and in thailand also can work as a trekking guide and now, in singapore, admin! (ooppss, I copy paste).

Admin woh. Thaught he’s jobless cause of his age and bout those visa as well. Well, he told me bout that before. Quite a little worried bout him also that moment. But now, he manage to get back to Singapore and work as an admin. Good right? Hoping he will stay the job more longer.

So, guys out there. If you worked as illegal last time, there’s still a chance to stand up and turn into a new leaf de. Nothing is IMPOSSIBLE in this world. Unless you give alot of reason, and those reasons is very very sux and lame, den forget about having a new life lor.

Well, some might think that "CHEH! HE BLUFFING U LA". Not True. Cause I know this guy better than others. He would never tell lies to me. Xcept for smoking. I still remember I was so mad at him cuz I caught him smoking and reading the chinese newspaper. Still appear strongly in my mind.

Then, in previous mail, I asked him about the tattoo he had at the side of the neck. Asked why he wan to tattoo my name, somemore at the side of the neck. Been making me curious for over a year now - maybe, since I last saw his picture.

He told me a very very long story. Of Cause not those Enid Blyton stories la. You thaught is something like Beauty and The Beast or Cinderella mea. Not bed time stories either.

I dont even know that he waited for me for so long, till I met John. I’m bad huh? YA. I’m a very very very bad gurl.

Back to the tattoo, he said he tattooed my name cuz he love me. Ahem* At 1st he wanna tattoo at his throat. (You kidding me?) Throat lea. It’s where the bone is. John tattoed an X behind his neck, also more painful than mine. Cause his back neck got the bone. So it’s pretty painful for him.

Why do guys want to hurt themselves like that lea? My ex told me before, Tattoo someone’s name doesnt mean anything. That was when we were still together.So I take his words. But I really neva imagine he will do that.

I felt like I am pretty bad. 3 out of 5, I love the most. But the 1st one didnt tattoo himself, cause i barely knew him for a year or maybe half the year. My ex, I barely knew him a year also. But our communication is good.
John is the longest guy I dated and I luv the most also. Can say that I cant let him go just like that. What I can do is to still continue to love him, and this/my love will neva be responded. Know is foolish and stupid, but hey! This is what I wanted anyway.

As some people might know that starting a new relationship is kinda sick. Kinda boring also. Some might think is fun. But sorry, not for me. I’m getting tired of having relationship, and doin break up eventually. Those break up feelings is so damn sucks. You have to takes alot of time to heal back your heart. And imagine, every day you have to force yourself to live without him/her by yourside liao. Those who are having relationship and is reading this, you might think I’m talking nonsense. But whatelse, touch wood, the next day you break up with your lover? Dare to tell me how u feel? I’m sure you will agree with me.

Though I love to die, cant hardly wait for my time to end soon. Waiting for the Death of God to take my life. But I didnt commit suicide when I was in terrible pain. Life is so painful earlier of the year 2006. While talking about 2006, suddenly I miss Justin. God. *sob sob*

-n- lastly,

Dedication to Kah Hoe, I really hope, if got one gurl reli reli likes you, and you have feelings for her too. Just give it a try ok. No use if you still waiting and hoping that I will come back to you one day. Hopefully, I can get your wedding invitation too. I just hope you can lead your life happy. We have the fate to meet each other, but we dont have the fate to be together. But I do treassure the moments we were together. Although is Past liao, but please look forward to the future ok. God bless.

Jan 19

After work, June took me to Bandar Utama Taxi stand, cuz I need to go to Kelana to pick up my brother and take him home. Luckily not that traffic jam. Just stuck awhile onli. And the taxi guy kept asking me questions. So 8 la. 8 gong. I go Kelana, wat’s his business har. Somemore ask, whr u stay ar? U work at Bandar Utama? Go Kelana meet fren? hizzzz….

Then reach his condo, called him out lor. And then he’s trying to stop those cabs. But luckily, got one lor. He said the journey is SERATUS RINGGIT. I said WHAT? SERATUS RINGGIT? Then he smile and say " Tambah satu ringgit sahaja. Bukan Seratus ringgit". I say: Oh.. Tak pe. I ingat seratus ringgit. Mahal tau.

On the back seat, me n bro chattin. So half way from Kelana to D’sara, then the cab driver said: - something like what what loving couple or matchin couple.. Something got to do with couple. I was like WHAT THE HELL???? Then I told him,me and him just god bro and sista la. Then koh say, if couple, we oredi hold hands liao.

Reach home, Fat^Fat greet my brother ner. Wah.. Fatty no bark at him. Somemore let my brother sayang him also. Awhile later, devi and Fui Sun came and we went out for yum cha. Well, That’s consider my dinner. Then we call Fyuen, see whether she wanna join or not. But weird is she said she’s at home cause toothache or maybe ulcer. But when call her brother, her brother say confirm Fyuen went out oredi. Meaning she tipu us?? Ugh. Dont care la.

Then brother talk to my fren so soft. Like shy shy pulak. Whole day he sat there. Poor thing. No one wants to talk to him. Wahahahah.. Kdkd.

Then went home around 10pm gua. And after awhile, sleep lor. Sleep in different room ok.

Jan 20

The next morning, I call him to wake up. He looks so tired. Supposed he follow me to work de. But then, he looks so sleepy, so I let him sleep lor. Then nun, I dar bau for him. Dont know what he wants to eat also. Somemore he looks kinda sick. Sniff and cough here and there. Mum say " MY GOD, HE’S STILL SLEEPING" And that time was around 1.30pm. I told mum dont disturb him, cause he’s already awake liao. Just let him lie around lor. Then back home, HE’S STILL SLEEPING! GOSH. Just like me. Love sleeping. wahhahahahha… pui fook pui fook.

So I ask him whether what he wants to eat. i dar bao porriage and Fried rice. Cheong Suk said this fried rice is special woh. Then koh say want to eat half. I thaught he want to eat half of the plate given to him. But actually he want to eat half of the porriage, half of the fried rice. SI TAMAK! Eventually, he ate the fried rice. I should have taste some. Huh. But I luv my porriage very much.

Then, we watch movie call ACCEPTED. For me, this movie quite nice also. After finnish, I lipat my clothes, den go to have a rest. Koh still watch TV. Then he went to have a rest later on. Then I went inside his room and kacau him. Wahahahahah.. Then beat him also. Ya. Kesian him. Cuz I let him stay, then somemore he let me bullie him also. Wahahah.. But i’m good also ok. I let him eat mentos. Got sour and mint flavour to choose. Then got lolipop also. But the lolipop I eat myself. Muahahah. Then he very picky. Picky like Iguana. Dont like to eat sour stuff. *blerrkkk* And he kept saying "I want to go MAMAK". This guy reli grew big by eating mamak stuff. But still raining, How to take him go har? Troublesome. Haha. Then I teach him to fold PART II love shape. Part I, he say he know how to fold liao woh. Dunno true or not. Tipu me, He die.

Then we went out to mamak lor (God. Yesterday mamak, today mamak also. Am I goin to be like him? Eating mamak everytime?) And talk alot. I talk alot about John thingy also. But now, I dont care la. Since no news on him, so I dont want to put high hopes.

Back to home, bro try to fold the PART II heart shape again. He looks like a little kid. So cute when he fold the love shape. Then he online cuz need to settle something.. N play until 4s’thing AM lea! My god. What’s the damn big business to settle woh? Haiz. Then i put on my mp3 player and listern and close eyes lor. Just to keep me awake when bro finish his stuff on9. I almost hear all the 92songs in my ++mix++ list. But I eventually slept after 5am. Cuz very very hard to sleep liao.

Jan 21

Woke up. Mum bought us noodle soup for breakfast. Then I prepared myself, cause I need to meet Jeff at sgwang. Sun pin bank in my cheque as well. Then call bro to wake up. He sleep like a pig somemore. Reli born to be a pig liao. *ahem, I think i should treat him like my son instead of my brother liao". Cuz usually mummy wakes their child up de. Then pack back stuff for them to eat. Look after them. Haha.

Then reach KL sentral, I ask him whether he wanna follow me to meet my frenz boh. Cuz he looks like blur blur. Finally, he choose to go bek hm. N I meet my fren.

Jeff bring along his GF. They look so sweet. Wear same colour tee. 2 people’s world. Haha. Then I kept looking for boots. I try afew at sgwang, but I dont like it. If not, dont have my size also. Uh. Went to sg wang, den to Times Sq. And I still keep on looking. After we sat awhile at starbucks, for some slight chattin, we continue to walk. And finally I found one. I even ask opinion from Jeff and his GF. They say it suits me. Ya. I luv it very much. Cuz is sharp pointed, and just 1inch tall.

I was so happy after bought it. Jump jump jump. Cuz I aim to have one for so long. And my dreams come true. Wah.. reli reli happy ner.. Finally have my own boots liao. Next, I wanna look for green one. Hehe. I dont wan black colour. Cuz black is too normal. seinz.

Then we went back loo. Cuz jeff’s bus is 6pm at pudu. While goin bek, I stop by at watson. And bought RM2O and above just to get the keychain.

Dang dang:-

I choose this type. Cute boh? **orangie color**

I’ve read The Star newspaper just now. And the Metro Central caught my attention - of wanted to read this artical MORE. (Usually, I dont read newspaper de. Just turn to the Section 2, Go to TV Guide and Comic and Cinema. That’s all - Close Paper)

But, since this artical caught my attention. Why not I just read it?

Here’s the photo:-

The only thing that Chan Ming Lai, 35, begs for is some attention for the little handmade souvenirs that he sells on behalf of his disabled peers at the Beautiful Gate Foundation in Petaling Jaya.

 

Urghhhhhh…. KEK SEI NGOR LA! When I trying to get hangers to hand those clothes that my mum just washed, I found out that my Radioactive Tee was stained with other’s fuck colours. Shit! Last time stained liao, but not that noticeable. I didnt make any fuss that time. Though that Tee was a couple tee that I’ve bought for me and John.

I luv this Tee very very very fucking much. Luv more than my esprit watch. Urghh!! Grrrr…. Goin to get mad liao.

- WHY I LUV THIS TEE?? Cuz of the design. Is super special. Not lame at all!

When can I wear now? Sleeping time? As a pyjamas? Shit!

I was soooo angry until I told my mum, NEVA EVER WASH MY CLOTHES - ANYMORE! Why? A white tee, and you mix with others coloured Tee? Dont you ever know is comman sense har?????????

Reli kek sei ngor. What happen to me today har? So fire since evening. Somemore AV also over liao. Why still get so mad har??? Fuck de la!

** MCR - Welcome To My Black parade **

Wanna know what’s that means? Well.. it means that when someone told u something, and give you some hint and excuse  - telling u to believe in her, and so you trusted her. Normally, I mean mostly, this is for those lame couples who give lame excuses. Wanted each other back, where else she already hurt the guy for so many times.

And this guy, is so fucking idiot. Since she got another guy in another hand, she still hinting on this poor guy. What do this girl want har? Did she think that she have all the powers? Nah! She dont have any. I dont know her quite well. But I respected her once, cause she helped me alot when Im in heart break moment. I reli so call, treat her like my best friend, cause what she helped me, I could never pay back.

But now, Guess she totally changed into some devil bitch. Well, if u are reading this, dont blame me. Cause in here, I didnt stated out your name.

I was like, calming myself. Telling myself not to call her and shout and fuck her up thru phone conversation. I’ve asked the guy permission - pls let me call her, or maybe I could talk to her in a nice and proper way. But this guy wouldnt let me call. FINE.

What I can do is just stay beside him. Encourage him to stand up again after are the x freaking years they have been together.

But what I dont like about her is she is a BITCH! She’s been making this guy living in Hell. Still she wants to play. Making him like spare tyre. And this guy - like - rela be stupid spare tyre to her. Once she’s left, he is lonesome and full of anger cuz been betrayed.

Hey! Can say she didnt betray you also, cause she’s been giving you hints. He is the one who dont wanna let go. So what’s this call?

CORRECT!

B.R.A.I.N.L.E.S.S

Using no brain to think. I know is hard to let go. But Try la. I even try mine, why not yours? If he wants to live this kind of life - Lonesome when she’s not here. Questioning poppin out his head when she’s not here. Feelin in love when she is here (but this is just spare tyre)…Then I advise, JUST GO AHEAD. No one wanna bother both of you.

Fucking Hell

Dont ever let me meet this type of gurl infront of me. Just say you are unlucky to meet me. Cause I wont give a damn about how sorry you are. How pity you are. How kesian and bla bla bla.

See - la, If I hear any unwanted things again, sorry la guy. I will better shoot her. Your maruah, I dont care anymore. Your Face, I also wont give any face.

Luv this song -

Song available: (click me) - Irreplaceable Song

To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left
Everything you own in the box to the left
In the closet that’s my stuff - Yes
If I bought it nigga please don’t touch
And keep talking that mess, that’s fine
But could you walk and talk at the same time
And It’s my mine name that is on that Jag
So remove your bags let me call you a cab

Standing in the front yard telling me
How I’m such a fool - Talking about
How I’ll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact he’ll be here in a minute - baby

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don’t you ever for a second get to thinking you’re irreplaceable

So go ahead and get gone
And  call up on that chick and see if she is home
Oops, I bet ya thought that I didn’t know
What did you think I was putting you out for?
Cause you was untrue
Rolling her around in the car that I bought you
Baby you dropped them keys hurry up before your taxi leaves
Standing in the front yard telling me
How I am such a fool - Talking about
How I’ll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact he’ll be here in a minute - baby

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I will have another you by tomorrow
So don’t you ever for a second get to thinking you’re irreplaceable

So since I’m not your everything
How about I’ll be nothing
Nothing at all to you
Baby I wont shead a tear for you
I won’t lose a wink of sleep
Cause the truth of the matter is
Replacing you is so easy

To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left
Everything you own in the box to the left

To the left
To the left

Don’t you ever for a second get to thinking you’re irreplaceable

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact he’ll be be here in a minute - baby

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I can have another you by tomorrow
Don’t you ever for a second get to thinking you’re irreplaceable

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact he’ll be be here in a minute - baby

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I can have another you by tomorrow
Don’t you ever for a second get to thinking you’re irreplaceable

Recently I noticed that my baby iws quite picky at food. Cuz I add in papaya for him. To let him njoy his appetite. The next day, i just gave him plain Pak Choi. Do you know? He just look at the container. And cant see anything orangie or smell anything fruity. Then, he just left without taking a bite of those veggies. Wah!! So picky. But I left the container there. Dont care about him. Learn to be so picky nowadays liao. Let him see whose the big boss around. Sleep at my room somemore. Want to learn to be picky.

But today, I gave him veggies and papaya again. He went to the container. Saw those cute cute papaya. And he ate it. Urghhh.. kek sei ngo!!

Now, he got one fat fat tummy liao. haha. When at nite, he lie at the branch I gave him. Look so cute. But when morning comes, I awake him up. He will look at me, with big big black eyes. Evil. Round big black eyes. Cuz he still sleepy ma. But after 15 min, his eyes goes bek normal. Cute eh?

Been reli busy at work nowadays. Hoepfully boss will hire another designer. I know he will hire jr or fresh grads, cuz their salary is low. But HALO! They are all smart liao. They wont ask for low pay like 1K la. It’s totally out liao.

Then internet at my hm is totally down. I also forgotten my password. But, just yesterday, while packing up my files, I saw my tmnet recovery password. Haha. Then I give a try today. Yup. Here i come. Log in yahoo. Send one doc to my sista. Hopefully she can just go back to Aussie. I know she’s kinda bored at china liao. For me, I would think I’m living in hell.

Then, I went to friendster. reply my friends msg. Sorry. Took so long. Then went to sgclub. Long time didnt have the chance to go there liao.

After work, I went to One Utama to meet my Godbro. At 1st, supposed to meet him at Kelana Jaya SS7 de, then this morning onli changed to One Utama. eally happy ner, can meet him again. This is the 2nd time I’m meeting him too.

Took a cab outside the mamak stall Al-Babi. No cab lea. I got panic. So I make up my mind and goin to walk and wait at the main road de. Suddenly,God helped me out. Cab come la. So happy liao.

Then reach liao, haha.. saw my koh koh joh. He so handsome. Gel hair. Pan leng leng. Fatt Hao! whahahahah.. Ya ma, he wear nice nice, den I wear cin cai cin cai. Mood down. Wanna go back home and change. Haha, Kd la. I’m not those fussy type.

Then we went to eat Chicken Rice Shop. Cuz I love to eat meat. Yum Yum. And this bro, havent eat at Chicken Rice Shop tim. OMG! Then I ask him, he usually eat what. He said ” expensive food-lor”. Wah, see la, My kai koh is rich d lea. Don play play with him oh. And he is a big eater. Tambah extra rice oso. I like.. WAHHHH…. But good la, can see him eat back I lagi happy.

After our lunch, I teach him how to make love. Not those make love la! Stupid. Choi choi choi! It’s make love = fold money into love shape. Cause I know how to fold ma. Twins Love Shape. To my despair, he say “Not like this de”. WHAT????????? He said, at the back got one straight line de. The love got close close together one. I got puzzle. What’s that? But I got excited also. Cause got new Love Shape to see woh. Then he told me he dont know how to fold it. *bum, i knock my head*

But, I also got teach him how to fold the Love shape that I know lor. At 1st, I took out RM1. Quite crumble de. So I gave up, cause I cant see my lines. So I took out another RM5. Fold half way, I give up also. Cause that RM5 made from PLASTIC LA! How to fold?? Although is a NEW one. Duh.

Then Koh took out RM10. New note lea. I got excited liao. Cause I love new note. Aim at his RM10 1st. HAHA.. Well, new note is much more easier to fold de. Then I teach him lor. And he smoke. *smoke until u die! But kenot gip u die, so I smell 2nd hand smoke. So Smell until I die*

After he finish his cigs, we went inside and sat at those - seats. He look so cute when fold the love. Looks like a kid. Like very curious on how to fold, which step is the 1st, which step is the 2nd. I make fun at him. Saying “see, all the passer by looking at you”. Then when he dont know, I mai teach him lor. Then still he dunno. Then I call him dumb dumb. Meaning Bodoh Bodoh. WAHHAHAHAHAHA….. I’m so cruel. No-la, he no dumb dumb. He juz innocent onli. But after all, finish loo. Pop out the love shape. I told him to keep properly. Dont use it up. But today, I dunno he got keep boh.

Then we catch a movie. Kung Fu Mahjong III. I wanna watch Haunted Apartments de. But he sked. Big boy sked of ghost. Haha. But normal la. I big gurl sked of Aeroplane also. I will go crazy when I saw Aeroplane infront of me. Thaught of watch Night At The Meseum (although I promised my fren, but I can watch it twice), but I see that he wanted to watch Mahjong more. Kaki Mahjong. Well, bro got ask me, like - as u wish. But I still choose Mahjong. Cause he’s the Big Bos TODAY (Just for one day).

Then he bought me Corn in Cup. Yummy. Ask that fellow to add extra salt de la. Mayb he hear wrongly, and skip addding the salt. When I ate, Yuck……..

So I went back to the counter and told em to add SALT for me. Koh bought me mineral water. I dont wan. He force me. Wah…. But still I dont wan. Blerk. And that mineral water is damn Xpenisve. RM2 lea. RM2 can get one big size Mineral water liao. The Big size mineral water oso can get RM1, but it’s at guardian. Now I dunno got or not loo.

The show is quite funny oso. Although dont know what they talk about mahjong. But it’s fun. Later, after the show, we went to have a drink at wat wat Oriental liao. It’s at the corner. Next to starbucks if not mistaken. And we have some chatting also. Then whole day I call him dumb dumb.. whahahahahahahahahahahah… I’m so bad. But he knows I’m kd onli. hehe. But my bro no dumb dumb ok. He clever clever de. Smart Smart oso. Like smarties. Colourful sweets. Yummy.

Then around 9 liao, we went home loo. Koh teman me go to old wing to take a cab back home. Then after he saw me inside the cab liao, he walk back to new wing to get back hm too.

At nite, or maybe I call as morning. 3.30am. John suddenly call me. I dont know it was him. Cause I deleted his number at my contact. Somemore I was blur blur. I ask him “who are you”. He said something like ” Mong san = Dream God”. I was like.. HUH? What’s that rubbish? I told him I recognize his voice. But because I am too sleepy, I couldnt guess who. Ken Koh? No lor. This bro is sweet sweet voice. Soft soft de. Ah Lou? No lor.. Lou voice not like that. Hock Seng? lagi kenot, he wont sampat call me so late one. Cant figure out. Until I told him to hold for a while.

I press the key to go back to my Received Calls. And thr I saw this number. It’s John number de. Then I told him I know who is he liao. I say “John right?”. See la, I so clever. Haha. Sleppy and so clever somemore.

But i got surprised also cuz he suddenly called me, after the so long call break up.

Then we chatted for half an hour. And after the conversation ends, he sms me.

John: How bout v get 1 baby this year?
xter: Har?
John: U like baby? Then v make 1 baby loh..
Xter: Yea, Like baby. Baby small small, cute cute. But why?
John: Errr..many of ur fren marriage joh. When u want marriage with me?
Xter: Are you asking to get back together?
John: Act i duno what i want..Cuz i feel i dont match u…U oso knoe me how bad d la..Some ppl dun like u 2gether with me d la.
Xter: Then why u ask me to married to u?

No reply.. Until next mon morning aroun 1am,

John: 2day sing k fun ma? Wat time till wat time?
……… conversation continue… and I close conversation, cuz i reli reli sleepy liao. 2 days I oso not enough 10 hrs to sleep. 5 am sleep till 8am (3hrs), den 3am sleep till 8am (5hrs)

And today, I got this msg from him saying

John: Xter, can v get back 2gether? If cant then nvm..
Xter: Can you tell me why?
John: My feeling is u..mayb u likes mui mui chai..haha..Tis reason can ma?
*I was like? WTH? FUCK! I am not mui mui chai. Idiot*
Xter: But I’m not mui mui chai
John: U said i like mui mui chai ma. Then my reason mai u likes mui mui chai la.. (cuz, after break up, I told him tackle mui mui chai)
Xter: I’m not mui mui chai. I’m old adi.
John: Then how? I like old gal loh.
Xter: U give me some times
John: If u think can, then tell me. If cant then nvm.

But I was too busy. So in meantime I no time to think of dating anyone. If he wait, den wait, if he cant, den juz go. I wont stop. I am not the xter last time liao. I am Evil ones.