Life is Death

NEVER HAD A DREAM COME TRUE?

I’ve always said that. But now.. I was so happy after i woke up from my dream.

Though i forgot what has happened that moment, but i felt he’s contacting me.

Was really really happy…Here, Let me share:-

I wanted Justin @ Ah bi, to come to my dream ever since he went to heaven, far from earth. My dream neva come true. (sadly to say, i seldom have dreams. Mostly is blank)

And since last sunday, i went to see justin, near the hulu langat there. As i said, I cried when saw his face, talk to him, share some news to him as well. Bro told me dont cry, else he wont bring me here again. And he said, Ah B oso dunwan see me cry like that.

But today 28, July 06′ (Friday) I dreamt Justin. I didnt saw his face of cuz. But he connected me thru dreams.

I woke up. I lost everything. Even the dream. And while i sitting down at the porch, waiting my mum to fetch me to work, I suddenly r’ber i have this wonderful dream. A dream i wanted for so long..more den haf a year.

It was Ah B. He came to me. FINALY. I retrace back, what i have just dreamt.

Don’t know why suddenly i sms my ex. While half way of the msg, i left it a side and went to… (i dunno where i go..maybe to the loo). And when i’m back, i found my sms was so funny. It doesnt make sense at all. So i deleted all of it and retype back again. While finished, and wanted to send out, suddenly my handphone screen auto itself type the msg. (The way we type sms).

Puzzle??

I asked it, who are you? I didnt speak..But instead, i typed (the msg to my ex, i still havent send out) And it suddenly replied that he is Ah B. I deleted all the msg, that i’ve typed earlier. I type new one. I typed, Who’s Ah B? Justin? It finally typed, after my text, say he is justin. I was so happy. I waited for his reply for so long.. Though he come to me thru sms, i felt much more than a happy feeling that could be name.

But once i woke up, i forgotten what have we chatted. It was so weird. The way i pressing the keypad, and after my paragraph and question, then is his turn. Though the msg didnt send out..or did i?? (*_*)

In his msg, he got tell me to take care..and the rest i forgot.. And if not mistaken, he suddenly got say about car.. I dunno what is that means. Something race car..porsche..

Justin, my lovely Ah B, Though u’ve gone for such a long period, but for me, you always there - beside me. I’ve lost everything, include you, include the one taht i love the most. But i know, life still goes on.

Bro told me dont be so sad. He told me many things. He said, If i still miss u so dearly, u will neva have the chance to ‘thau toi’. I told him, i rather not let you ‘thou toi’. Know im selfish. But since you really came to my dream, even you didnt show your face. I was already more than happy.

Thanks alot for listening to my prayers and my feelings. I’m really really happy joh. Till now, how i wish i neva wake up from my sleep. But i know, you got your limit also.

B, thanks very much. You’re my best friend i would treassure the most and would neva ever wanted to forget you.

WOW,  This movie gonna cum soon.wah..so happy man!! This thursday probably will out.. wanna watch!! wanna watch.. yummy..My baby ting fung, finaly come back..

N recently i knoe he’s got a movie called ’semir’ wif twins d. Urggg.. Whr can i find that movie?? Ltr gonna watch his ‘the making of Semir’ at internet joh.. waiting to watch.. got 90% joh..so happy.. hehe..

N.. last sun, i went to see Justin@ ah b. My 2nd god bro took me thr. At 1st i’m ok d..but while talking to him, i cried.. I cry cuz i reli miss him.. very much..somemore, if he at least come to my dream, i feel relax abit. but he didnt. Uh.. For me, I’m waiting for my time to come oso. Then i can meet many of my dearest doggie+puppy, den my grandma, and justin and my uncle. Wah.. sure i’m very happy wen meet em in heaven..

N then, i can always beside my dear dear ting fung…F.O.R.E.V.E.R..Can gip more support to him..see him eat, sleep and bla bla bla..

Dunno why i suddenly go crazy on ting fung today.. reli luv him heapz!

Ohhh..burfday gone loo.. old one yr joh.. Very veryy happy cuz my god bro got wish me happy burfday, though is late. Thx bro. luv u much!

N now, i got 4 cakes. One from kok leong, den one from nicole, den june and fong yuen they all. Thx muchie! Luv u guys.. 2 cheesecake and 2 chocs.. June’s choc’s very yummy.. How i wish tomolo i still hv bday n eat it again.. yummy. Greedy la me. Shhhh…

Been sleeping at office recently.. reli terrible. Luckily yest n today, i got some sleeps, so i didnt sleep at office.. haha.. Though office got jobs to do.

At 1st, wanna write many things, but suddenly, online, den forgot about what i wanted to write joh..sei mou..Ltr goin to sleep soon.. a lil rest.. feeling abit tired now.. suddenly… zzzz

ahhhh…n vincent, our boss, belanja us makan SUSHI!! haha.. so dat means, me and Justin’s c’bration oso at the same sushi restoran.. yummy.. June pick the food for me to eat.. Thx oo….yummy** n Vincent say, i will bring rotan for u, cuz i eat very slow, and ‘mm teh mm tiew’, cuz like wan eat, and dunwan eat.. Cuz hor.. i eat junk food at 12.30 joh lea.. of cum a bit full full oo.. hehe**

Been sleeping alot at office.. everyday around 4-5 sleep till 6pm..fong gong time. Luckily not many things to do that time,. Else i habis. Dunno what’s wrong with me. Am i becoming like justin oredi? Sleep in the office liaw?? Bahaya me joh.

But reli reli reli tired.. Even after work, i bath, and sleep 1st.. from 6.30-8.30pm. Then will auto woke up d. Then in morning, i very hard to wake up already, but push myself up oso, cause need to take iguana out for sun bathing.. haha.. Talking bout igu, he’s back to me oredi..Long stories.. But i’m happi he’s back..

Today, I slept for 1hr at office, Is oso before lunch time..My face and my body is overturned at the sofa. Feel so gd when sleep like dat, like dead body, and ppl cant see my face.. ahha.. Then hor, vincent press the code n ding dong.. oh shit, i faster wake up.. n my left hand sud becum numb. I cant even hold the mouse.. N my face got so red in one side oredi.

N guess what? June bought me choc kek. Yum yum.. I was so happy.. cause 1st, i’ve received from kok leong is cheesecake, and at nite, it’s another yogurt cheese cake, and sud come choc cake.. Yum yum.. my fav flavour.. V ate at Golden dayz. Suppose bring red wine lea.. haha..But gold dayz say, is free of charge n will open for us. So, i tiup the lilin n even gave some kek to them as well. Reli yummy lea. Long time no eat choc cake.. N so sweet.. yummy!! And that guy wish me bday as well..

Then, bek office, gip to vincent oso. Vin say who bday? I say, i bring u cake, sure i bday ner.. Then he wish me, n wan belanja us makan tomolo..But tomolo sat lea..so i no come..den he say mon..i say okiez.

But, sud i realise mon i take off. Y lea?? Cuz i’m damn tired lea.. Always oso sleep at office. Not so nice. So better take one day off, and reason is clear leave lor. Vincent approved. Yest bday, slept at 3am, den today will out wif my frenz.. wah..this frenz long time no see them liaw.. sure many things to chat joh.. den sat will go facial early morning and will go Redbox for c’bration Nicole’s burfday, and sun will go out wif my lil bro to catch a movie at mid valley in the morning as well.. Then next wed, will go watch recycle after work..and next sat mayb will b goin to meet yoong. Hope can meet her. Really miss her alot. Really miss her. Cuz she’s the best friend whr i work b4. N that’s y i reli need to take a leave, else i dunno pengsan whr joh.

Then today, fong yuen, fui sun n devi, v all c’brate at caveman here.. at KIP. V eat par.. but will get tiew for tomolo ma?? haha.. kd.. and eaten everything, den we ate the choc cake..Yummy!!! They treat me eat…yum yum**

Justin, Y no wish me happy burfday d?? U r the onli one who hvnt wish me. U come to my dream ltr?? Miss u veli muchie..

Well, one of my fren, wishes me on 11.50pm..So she’s the 1st one who wished my happy burfday n gip me kisses. And den followed by xiao b, he gip me a call on 12.01am n wishes me. ltr, John sms me at 12.03am at my 012 and mms at my 016. He even gip me a bday kiss. But juz a fren bday kiss gua..Dunno, cuz i didnt ask him. Then sud make me miss him oredi.. uhh..Ltr on, follow by devi, she call me ner..so happi..den she wish me oso, n plan to go out on fri for c’bration.. N i ltr sms one of my fren, cause she’s oso same day burfday wif me oso..cool eh?? Ltr, is fong yuen sms me lor..wish me oso.. den ltr, i go to sleep loooo..at 1 s’thing.

n sud 1.50am (mayb) ah lou called me.. ah lou is nicole ahem ahem.. haha… Bad la me.. n this mornin, wykie wishes me, den nicole, den bobo den june den kok leong n angie…yumyum..N kok leong bought me cake.. lagi yum yum.. ltr share wif wykie oso, cuz june’s sick..cham..uhh..

Then tonite got c’bration, they say gip me surprise.. yum yum.. n fri, will go out wif my gang loo..den sat go facial, and sun go see mv wif fren gua..he’ll confirm me the time..cuz long time no see him joh..he’s my lil god bro..N next wed will go to see recycle.. haha.. n drink red wine probably..hope so lor..N b4 wed, it’s tues, it’s my beloved lovely gurl bday..Guess who?? Not goin to tell ya here….

Well, den hor, got ppl wish me oso.. My sis goin to b her hubby, called me..wishes me, n he oso know i break up wif my bf, den my sis wishes me and den Ah yoong sud call up, den v chat alot lor.. she wishes me oso, happy that she r’ber lea.. neva thaught she will call me tim..Neva imagine oso, den June bought me bday cake.. yumyum** Then sue fang call me n wish me oso.. wah.. so happy ner..N then i met kenny, n he wishes me as well.. <<cant sleep joh>>

Then 9pm, Nicole come n fetch me.. urm, xiao b drive, together wif james.. V eat dinner, den went to sunway for HALO Cafe.. Nicole dim gor for me.. I oso dunno d lea.. Then the guy, who sing song at the stage, he recognize my name, cuz it’s ‘xter’. But since they talk in mandarin, so i’m not so sure what they talking. The guy oso say, ‘eh u trim ur hairstyle?’ but actually i timmed joh d’..they r quite friendly oso lor, n sand bday song to me..n nicole they all bought a cheese, yogurt rassberry cake for me to eat.. yumyum..

N time to open present loo.. Nicole+alvin bought me a book.. Must read oh, cuz they buy d lea.. Then nicole say it’s from a famous author.. N xiao b.. at 1st they tell me to guess, i mai guess..either is a ring or a pair of earing.. But instead, it’s a love symbol, for necklace. Is thr any meaning for it?? I neva imagine he will buy me sthing gold. Y he wanna waste so much money on me where else he hardly knoe me??

When i saw the gold, i thaught of john. cause john bought me a ring last time, n bside, regarding some purpose. N he oso did promise me, he will buy me gold everytime i c’brate my bday. This time supposed to be a pair of earing from him. But since no more together.. I’m not wanted the gold earing.. i juz..well, reli miss him alot.

Loon told me, old want dont go, new one dont come.. but it’s not that i wanted anyway. Even ah yoong got a shock about my break up, cuz john n ah yee + ah ting are very gd fren. But many things happen..n the most sweetest is, at least john gave me a bday kiss. Thx. Know is nothing to him, but it’s a gift from him to me.

Today, i put iguana to the sunlight, i mean below the sunlight lor.. Shelter d.. Then, after 1 hr, my iguana still here d, den sud my mum say, whr is ur iguana? She thaught it’s at my shoulder, i say it’s still at the cage..But DID NOT! I was so oo… huh.. It went missing juz like that.. I was so heartbreak..

I kept searching around..Even neighbour’s garden.. But still no sign of my iguana.. I was so so so sad..so down.. Been at the hot sunlight for an hour, almost got headache..cuz too damn hot.. So i went inside the hse, drink some water to cool down..

N i inform my frenz…about the lost.. Nicole told me she’s goin to come n help me find.. thx.. She wif alvin oso..But still couldnt find.. Eventually alvin need a torch light..I got torchlight, but dun hv batteries.. so i went across to 7-11 and bought 3 batteries.. biggest ones..and still no sign of my baby..

Ltr, nicole suggest y not printed out and stick at those lamp post?? Gd idea.. so i faster print out..DANGER, lost iguana,pls call me, rewards will be given.. But however, i reli hope i can get calls from them asap.. Huh.. I dunno what to do..from 3pm-6pm i’ve been searching for iguana.. Then i giv up, cuz i need go for gathering + bday party joh..

Reli hope my baby will ok lor.. Izzit i got no fate wif iguana? 1st iguana got fungus, then, this time, iguana went missing.. reli hurt lor.. somemore this iguana is quite big oso.. uhh.. Y am i so badluck d?? Wat’s wrong wif me this yr? Hope this bad luck go away soon..But, well, infact i dun belive much in badluck.. Knoe it’s takdir joh d..but now, i’m waiting for my life to be over..means, ++die++