dEarest my bEloved aLways n forever Justin Tham,
You knoe? I visited my parents house on 1st CNY. But they are not in. So I put my bonus money for them at the piano and washing machine. Then, back to my room, pack a bit of clothes. My thailand clothes. And some of the new clothes i bought and havent wear d lea. So hope to wear it at CNY as my new dressing. You knoe, Fat^Fat was not there. I was so sad. Mayb they untied fat fat n let it b wild. No ones know. Hope that she take fat fat with them also. Mayb holiday to Perak?? Hopefully.
Then dat same day, me and john went to nicole hse pai lin. So fun at there. Goldie was there oso. Fat fat part 2 ner. Guess you will wait outside.. but dont worry ok.
Well, I’m using ur mac now. Don’t mind? Miss you alot. Hope your soul is still in here. Come back to me..Hey!! 2day start work liaw. 3rd feb. Did u come? Nah..U have MC until sat r’ber? Hope to see you on monday then. Must come back ok.. I wait..
Now i listerning to your fav band. Yupe. BSB. ‘crawling back to you’. Guess you havent received your album of ‘Black and Blue’. Cause it’s in office ya. Will give to your dad. He’ll either come today or on mon. Take back all your stuff.
This morning, me and June burn ur things. Neh..Those Justin’s folder d lea. Wah..so many ahmoi u download. Longkang byk ya. All burn joh. From G4, emac and PC ya. Those effect and picture of yours, i keep ok. Noting more i can keep beside that.
You knoe? I thaught of asking your dad to return the dye hair of blond i gave to you d lea. I thaught of dye it just for you. I knoe u want uR hair to b dyed on / b4 CNY. But what u dyed, it isnt turning what you aspected. Tell you dont buy, u keras kepala. C la.. Waste money onli.
Yest I went to Times Sq. Thaught of having the bracelet u gave me to be fixed. 29 pearls remain. But the shop fellow so bz. Until i left that place. Don’t worry, I will fix it ok. I will wear it back and try to b careful next time.
Ahhh..b4 1st day of CNY, I went to John’s hse. His mum cook. Very very nice ner. yummy. Got ’siew yuk’ oso..Den prawns..soup. very delicious. But in the afternoon, r’ber i told u, i need go back cause the owner ask me to eat oso?? That time got duck la, white chicken, roaster pork. all is karnivor d. Herbivor juz petai lea.
Then ‘chor 4′, i went to john’s fren hse. Neh..da gurl i say very tulan d lea. eat John’s money d. Cause go thr john gamble on cards o. I no muka hitam ya. I gip him play. In the end.. He won ner.. won round 200.. Den he gip me haf of it. But instead, i take onli 50. Cause after gamble, they all went to 1station. Drink olmost 100. Cause order beer.
Ahhh..Chor yi, i went genting.. play indoor 24hrs. not nice d lor. Luckily is haf price. But mostly, i play bumper car. Olmost 10 times. I sasaran at the two botak children. ahah. Bad hor me. Den play till over 5am. B4 dat, i got sms u d. round 10pm s’thing. Ask are you at genting gip uncle lim $, or sudah balik kampung. Then around 12am s’thing, ur sms come. saying ‘Justine already died thie morning’. Should i belif? Nah.. Thaught u main kalah at casino.
Now i regret. really really regret. Ask for your Forgiveness.
Back home a 6-7am. 4pm woke up. Many many miss call. Nicole, June, Wykie.. Ur dad oso…Mostly is them. Finally i found out the truth about u. Fall. Cry.. Sad.. Heartbreak..
Pay visit to you around 6-7pm.. Saw ur painful face. Drop down and cried. Cried and Cried. You look so hurt.. Scared me. …relli.. Your insurance, June, oso was there. Help u lipat ‘kam’.. Know u spend alot ltr.
U received ur car?? Now you got it. Happi?? Cheers ok!! Got the number plate?? Ltr u kenot drive o.
Everyone miss u. I told fong yuen. Devi oso. Dont mind?? Ltr in friendster, ur closest fren, i tell ltr about u. Hope everyone can take it.
I will visit ah yew in this few dayz hopefully. He can still take what he have right now. Seems pity. Hope he’s strong now. He can talk. But forgot what was happen actually. He lost one eye, 2 hand and one leg. His Gf got ask about his bf and you. Raj told her that u r ok. Dun wan her to stress out a moment.
I keep ur newspaper artical. For memories. Dont wanna lose u. Thaught the chor yi, i stay overnite there. Dont want you to left alone. Want to teman u. Sked you are afraid alone in the dark. Everyone pantang. Hope u understand ok. i stay till 10pm… BuT I didn’t put the colok for u. Dont mind? Whatever, i pray for u.
Still listernin to bsb.. Miss the times v together.. Share our ‘pat gua si fei’.. Our love life.. Problems.. this and that.. Miss the way you sit next to me.. The way you olmost fall down from your chair. Make maxiimpact chair olmost rosak. Eat Milo 2gether. Celebrating bdayz 2gether.. and the sushi shop, u eat d lea ok. Not me or nicole lea. Den miss… those chop slam. Ur sleepy blue blue face, Touch ur hair, massage for you, smack your back. Tell you dont hunchback. Tell you smoke less. All those Ah B words. LOTR..Ah may ar ah may… Hung chung momoki ar.. Hin nar beh kun ar. Throw thgs at each oth… Kap ichiro.. Then the four season restorant.. ‘eh that guy is la pah fu fren la’..
Justin.. Miss u alot alot alot..billionnnnn million…. I dunno what to do. Head blank. Mind blank. all totally blank. I sked to sleep alone at the begining. Went either Nicole or John’s hse. But now, i’m ok. Really hope u come to my dreams. Tell me thgs.
Still waiting for this day to arrive…
And another thg. Just recently i got one sms from hotlink.. Fort Minor live in KL!!!! yOUR FAV BAND!
Justin, you know, after i wrote this blog hor, Ichiro there got 4 lion dance lea. 2 white d. One red, One orange. One Gold d
