Life is Death

Recently.. Uh..

I wan take my IC… My IC ok joh. Wah..No need wait for 1mth leh. So fast. Since now sat they close, I oso dunno how to take. Mayb wake up early mornin den stop by there and take, den baru go to work lor.  C how 1st lor..

Den 2nd is, I have to check doc. About my hepatitis B. Many of my colleague tell me to suntik. But I dunwan lor. Suntik sakit d leh. pintai. Y? Cuz i eat too many kerang lor. shit mou? Eat oso can die. But yummy oh. How to resist it leh?

3rd is buy insurance. I dun hv insurance d, after my  coll life. Uh… See how 1st la.. Cuz one big thing come now…

Wat is it leh…Is:

The aust there lor. The uni lor.
I very the fuck up joh

Y the uni want to accept me d. Chi Bai** Can rasuah that Uni ma? Den tell em del my name. haha.

Den hor, worst is 3yrs d lor. Course start at 20 feb 06 end 2 s;thing dec 08. Shit mou??

den 3yrs i have to go thru those fucking winters, spring.. Darn!!

How to survive?? Hate d lor. Havent tell my mum yet. soon gua. Uh..

Wat to do?? den 48k leh. wen I reach 30, I hv nuttin man. NEED pay bek my uncle leh, cuz he sponser me. Den i still hvent pay bek my mum oso. Uhhh..

Hopefully nicole got her PR soon..den she can go aust. Can teman me.. den v sleep 2gether, cold 2gether. Den she jaga me, cook for me, bring goldie go oso..

BUT I DUNWAN GO LEH!!!!!!

Recently one of my relative past away. Urm, Not so close actually. It’s from my grandfather side d. Wah..Many of them still alive. So strong man.

Dat night, went there wif my parents. One of my cousin din show up. uh* But his bro got show up lor. Den hor, her mum baked cake leh. Yum yum* Very yummy. They muz be lucky to have such mum. Her mum oso pandai make those..sumekind like pudding leh, den food oso sedap sedap d. Cuz been to thier hse for few times joh..

Den slow slow, the time pass joh, den bek hm..Reach hm roun 12am joh lor. Den bath n sleep lor. But b4 sleep, play with fat fat..Pat him, sayang him, kiss him gd nite.

The next day..Is the funeral lor. ahem* Den at nite is the dinner..

I sat next to my cousin.. Ahh..tis is the cousin i talked juz now. Wah..He got Ipod leh. So gd. Den he pinjam me dengar. He dunwan gip me. so bad. Kd. He say hor, if he got win one, he gip me. Nah. Hear dat 1st har. Ltr sure he forget me joh d. He win, den he simpan d.. haha..But he’s not the kind of person d la.

He very gd guy d. Den dinner serve. He gap food for me. See.. So gd.  Who bcum his wife sure damn hang fook. Cuz everynite, my cousin will gap food for her..den mayb will feed her oso. Wah… So lam leh. Y no ppl gap food for me d?? Ahh…Got..Justin got oso. But sumetimes onli. haha.

But proud cuz hv him as my cousin lor. Sumemore he leng chai. Got sideburn. So naugty. Luckily he bigger den me, juz a few weeks. Dat’s y he sayang me. So out there, dun jealous ya

Den got many many aunty oso. When finnish d dinner. One of the aunty came. Wah.. She still r’ber me. I oso forgot her joh. No trace of her face in my memmory. Den she say I look like her daughter. ahem* But her daughter more pretty ya. Den the aunty say, ‘when I’m small, I beat her shoulder and call her ‘batman’.. Har?? Did i actually say that??

Weelll.. Dat was bcuz I’m still small. So forgot joh. hehe.**

This is what I havent wrote since I came back from Aussie…

It’s been a mth or more when I’m at there. I don’t like that place. I know many people who hope to go there and have a great future ahead. But Hey! Not me ok. I’m doing here fine. I like where I’m born. I knoe my parents want me to see me in a bright side. But..Aint they selfish?? Uh..Mayb it’s me.

Everyday I have to woke up at 6.30am. The dog will scratch my door. Tell me to let him in. I tried not to open the door at the begining. But It’s keep on scrathing and I have a headache. Uh. Let Gaul in, He jump on my bed n sleep next to me. So small, so black n so furry. (Yeah* Dat is the dog, I uploaded at friendster Pic.) But after that, I very hard to fall bek to sleep. Urghh..Make me so tired n sleepy.

Than 11 something, Gaul will wake up, n start yep n lick my face. Urgh. I have to wake up, and gip him eat titbits n his lunch. I leh, will wash those plates, pots and pans .. Cuz I like to see kitchen clean d. Den will wash clothes n sidai baju. N take bek those dry clothes n lipat.

At nite, I will watch DVDs which borrow per week d. 10bucks for a week n can onli pinjam 5pcs onli. But in 2-3days, I finish all joh. So..I mai sein lor.

Usually sms nicole n john. Maxis sms is so shit. It needs 3.00per sms. Shit not? I got told john reload 50bucks for me so i can sms him..But den he reload ta my digi. Digi cant send sms. Shit mou? But den John n Nicole got my FNF joh. So, wen they sms me is much more cheaper. Den John at nite call me..Olmost everynite  after midnite 12am. Cuz after 12am it’s cheaper the rate. At there, Mornin, I call Nicole n John oso. Once, I was so down, I called Nicole. Cried. Cried at public phone. Ppl watch me. But i dun care. So desperate to go bek Msia. Nicole try talking to me. Comfort me…How I wish she was really beside me dat time. So she can hug me, den i cry at her shoulder. Make her nice xpensive clothes kena my air mata. haha. 

Everynite, I wait 12am to come. So dat John will call me. I cant even sms much. One sms cost .25cent. In Msia, Usually use 1cent joh. So my credit always becomin low and lower. In Moocake festival, Nicole n John sms me. Yummy. They play so fun. Nicole attend Fren bday.

Sometimes Justin oso got sms me d.. But I got low credit..so The next day mai call him lor. I got even email John, Nicole, Justin, June n many many frenz oso..Coll frenz oso got mail me. Cuz I went there all of a sudden. But really so sorry, cuz didn’t inform them earlier. Mayb they will throw me a fairwell party. haha. Kd.

Well, now most of the people out there havent knoe how did i manage to be bek to Msia.

All thanks to Nicole. Cuz she really helps me alot. Cant imagine it.

She help me out. John too. But Nicole is the most.

I once wanted to go to the airport myself cuz I got my open air ticket. But den, I finally rber that I need another ticket to enter the boarding. The ticket, which can tear into 2. Told Nicole whether I can get it at Airport or not. But Mas Airline said I must go to MAS Airline in Aust.

So the next day, After my sis went to work, I got nicole sms n I called up MAS Airline. Book the flight on Friday, as Thursday I need to go see the TAFE. N guess what? Saturday is my trip to Bangkok. I knoe It sounds stoOpid and rushing. But, I was in the TRAP!

I told MAS that I will collect the ticket tomolo. After booking, I went to Train station. Ask information. And suddenly, I got the urge to go to the town. N I got the plan ticket. I was so happy. Called Nicole n John up. Told them I have the ticket already. Cant belif myself that I actually did that. I’ve been asking so many people, security guard, to find my way to MAS there. Luckily most of them are helpful. Thanks God.

At the very beginning, I thaught I’m goin to take a Cab. Cuz I got 150 at the very beggining. Then My sis gave me 200 more. Was happy. Eventually didn’t last for long. She took back 200bucks. Den i bought 10bucks on public tel card - shout card, calling international d. At Aust, Cab is damn xpensive. Since now I left onli 100+, I was sked. 100+ cant reach to airport d. Nicole told me to get an Airporter. Much cheaper.

So, I went to Central Town look for that Airporter. Din find any. So I went to Paddy Field. Bought some souvenirs for maxiimpact. Y i buy? Cuz.. I finnaly found another way to go airport.

Quite troublesome.

It’s the train station.Much more cheaper.But  Need to change train lor. I count oredi. It takes 1hr.15min from yagoona to Airport.

N darn, My sis order the com, arrive at Friday, from 8-12pm

On friday, I woke up after my sis left for work. Let Gaul in. Gaul knoe I’ll be goin soon. He slept at my pillow. Cuddle himself. Look so sad. But I cheer him by giving him eat titbits. But ltr, He still sleep at my pillow there. Uh. 

My flight is 2.20pm. Must reach there 2hrs early. means Reach there at 12.20pm. Computer havent arrive. waited from 8-11am. GOSH! 11am joh. So sked.

So i take my luggage out..Open the door. N suddenly a man standing there. Looking at the door plat. I knoe he arrive joh. So i told him take evrything to Upstairs. N i need fix everything, Plug in cable. This that. Make sure it’s function. Cuz sis dunno how to do it. At the time, everything finished, It was 12.15pm joh. Shit lor. 

Den I walk walk walk..and walk myself to the train station. for 15-20min. Imagine, I have a luggage, den a big bag. My hands so sakit. Red oso. Luggage damn heavy. 21kg..Somemore dat time I have my AV coming. Weak. But I still keep on goin. Hope to catch the plane.

At Train station, Now escalator nor lif. Luckily one young teenage girl helped me out. Den another woman, help me take my bag down. Feel Luckiy n tired.

Finaly reach at International Airport. So Hapi. And I have to depart now. Gosh. I thaught I still have time to look around. cause it’s onli 1.30pm. And I have one thing to buy. It’s Warmbat. To put at the car d. Luckily Got. Near the departure door. Yeah..For Nicole d. Whatever, If have any chance, I have to find the warmbat. Cuz she helped me alot..and alot oso. I treasure so much.

…To b continue..

Continue back..

Den I bought 2 warmbat keychain. It’s a keychain..sumething like road sign d. Den Bought one Koala Roadsign for John oso. After everything done, I went inside the depature..Let them check my body, sensor everything..n done. I got inside the plane. Wonder what will happen When I’m back.

Nicole, Alvin and John..waiting for me at KLIA…

n.. the the most surprising thing is.. I saw my PARENTS! I wonder how they know. Ltr, my mum told me that she checked MAS Airline and knew that I’ll be coming back on that day. And the rest, .. I dont want to say <<anymore>> Cause the next day, I’ll be off to Bangkok.

Sat, luckily no work.. haha!! FFK justin tim.. But gd ma.. I dunwan b big spotlight ner.. He understand d.. Hehe.. Den mai wake up at 7.30am, n went to sunway there. My mum luv to buy mag, den got those freebies at sunway piramid. I mai beratur lor. From 10 to 11am.. Wah.. Den byk org joh.. Many many leng lui beratur.. Ahem.. Tube la, mini skirt la..Makeup la..Tattoos la.. Yum yum.

Then Fashion show is AMBER CHIA! Damn leng lui man! She’s so damn cool. She aint smiling. Den one of the model.. Urm, abit black skin type la. She wore a skirt. Guess what? Her skirt olmost fall down. Yeah! U can guess, Can see her buttock la. Buttock line man. No kd. Even guys whistle man.  Almost slip down. Too lose la the skirt.. But many of those model, Amber the coolest d. Her Boyfren must b very very luv her.. Yum yum**

Den when i wann go bek, den got test drive of ‘Smart Car’. My mum have a test on it. She drove 2 rounds. Many of those ppl wanna drive at highway, den go to KL there. Showoff man! But if accident, is the driver pay ya. Den rent one ‘Smart Car’ is rm88 per day. Gd eh??\

Den Sun went to 1u lor. Last week went to times joh. Den watch The Exorcism of Emily Rose. TIEW! Not nice d lor… Kena tipu d la.. Den say got satan voice. I oso dunno true or not d. Koma lagi nice. Got lam kah yan. haha..

Den walk at GIANT lor.. Wah..Giant there.. haha.. actually very funny. At the top, they put signage as ‘SOUTH AFRICA’..dan the product is from US?? .. Fun not? Cuz i bought Biscuit. yum yum. Tis biscuit hard to find d. But havent eat yet. Want save save 1st..

2day went to Beach.. Not those simple beach d.. Beach Club to see bAby sHark.. Muahahha.. I want d baby shark.. got 2 ner.. Yum yum.. so many meat.

At 1st today supposed is my mum BIG day celebration. So, went to 1utama.. Den watch movie.. Urm… Da… forgot wat show joh. (nowadays watch many show).. den ahhh.. Knoe joh.. Is Corpse Bride. Eventhough is cartoon.. But is very nice. Bout dead n living d. Nice nice..

Den eat lor.. I treat my mum eat mornin n lunch. She’s happy wif it. Whatever she buy, i pay lor. Her BIG day woh. Den i’m BIG girl woh. Cuz dinner I got activities..

Luckily, told her dat Sun i replace the dinner lor. DEn..off i went to beach club..At 1st we eat dinner 1st.. at pudu there.. Urm.. steamboat.. Somekind like porriage like dat. nIce oso.. Yummy.. But not enough to eat.. ahem!! But seems weird, everyone is full.

Den..at Beach Club.. they all drink.. I juz take a sip or two onli. Not much.. Cuz mix wif coke. Den got so many ppl joh.. Lost my glass, so no drink anymore. Den bek hm roun 3-4am joh.. Slept round 4am.. Den d next day hard to wake up..Cuz bought tic jo to see Zorro.. Aiss…Yawn so much man! Almost slept at cinema.. zzZZzzzz…

Supposed today go to market wif mum. But i overslept. Mum din wake me up. I slept until 2s’thing. Really pig hor? Den start 3pm, I clean my room.. shift all my stuff out.. My teddiess…den my bags, trays.. table, camera..this la that la.. wah!! Almost8.30 joh.. Den siap all.. So tired man.. Even a small room, I clean until i haf die joh.. Byk habuk.. HUh..Means i breath all d habuk oso.. Bad to health ner..Den eat curry.. Mum try cookin it. Not so pedas..But for me, ok lor. Cuz 1st time.. Usually 1st time not good rite? Can still try..

Juz now Read my fren’s blog.. Long time no news from him d.. Suddenly come up. Den he face many problems. Most of it.. It’s his relationship. Poor guy. Y he deserve like dat leh?? But dear, if u r reading this. Hope u understand one thing. (This is actually nicole told me d)…Know ur life is miserable now. Knoe u got no mood at all. But.. God is actually helping the girl u luv once. Is not that God is not helping. And all the life v living, is set to a rule joh. Cant change. If v r down, V need to pick bek ourself up. Cant let evil throw us down n down. Like me, I have a terrible life. Aint living helping. Sume times I blame God..For what he gave me. But what to do? God want to play me, I play back la. To get back my life eventually next time. Ppl got ups n down d. Not everyone can get what they need. Must look for it. Like you said in ur blog.. Saying u rather sleep n not wake up.. means lying dead uh? I once say.. i rather die in the motor accident i got. Rather die in cancer or whatever. Just hope that I won’t in this world. But see.. Still here I am. Typing this blog. God wan test me.. Wan me suffer. Nicole told me..dun think of dying. Pointless d. Hoping dat my fren let go.. Give her rest in peace n continue his life. Knoe he upset. But whater is it. Ur sound of voice, she can hear forever. Trust me.

Hoping he got a gd life ahead… soon~